So. I have a blog.

Lately I've been trying to think of a good way to let out all of my thoughts, all of the things that God has been teaching me. And I've also been reading some good blogs. So I decided, maybe I should start a blog too. So here it is.

Frankly, this blogging might be kind of risky for me because a lot of the things that God teaches me are extremely personal, and I usually only share it with my kids(church youth group kids!<3), and a very select few other people. This is going to be revealing my life almost at its most raw, but I think I'll proceed with it anyways.

So...here's the nut in the nutshell. To be honest, I felt like for quite a while...maybe a year or year and a half, my relationship with God has kind of come to a standstill. Not a "bad" one, but not a good one either. In fact, it felt like everything was just stuck. Stuck where it was. Not picking up. I started to lack passion during the week, started to forget to pray, forget to read my bible, to be thankful for simple things throughout the day. I became a different sense of the term "Sunday Christian," feeling like I was only able to have an outlet for my fervour and passion on weekends at church. Not because I wanted to, per se, but I really felt a struggle during the weekdays to have that wonder of God to the same extent that I had known before. And I knew it. I saw it everyday, and started to realize that I wasn't doing my part - it takes two to make a relationship. And obviously, because God never leaves my side, it was me who wasn't noticing Him there. It wasn't as if I started "doing bad things," it's just that I would forget things that I had made a habit of before, in terms of living for God and with God in my life. I was still going to church every Friday and Saturday night, and still attending service and Sunday school on Sundays.

Speaking of which. Oops. This is going to be an abrupt ending to the first post. I just realized it is 12:48am and I must leave the house early for worship practice tomorrow morning. I guess that was only part of the nut haha. Maybe I'll continue it soon this week. Farewell for now!